The weekend from hell . . .

-FRIDAY-

After picking up my paycheck from the Academy I went to Christina's house to spend some time with her befroe I left for LI to my cousins house in Ronkonkoma. They we cleaning all of my lil sisters big mess and we had yucky Chinese food for lunch and watched the Breakfast Club. I left around 2:30 and came home to pack and get ready to leave. I hopped on the Q41 to the LIRR Jamaica Station. The station was very nice and looked well kept, and the trians were so much nicer and roomier than the subway cars. I read my Jihad in Bklyn book during the hour and 10 minute ride to LI. My cousin Lynn picked me up from the station and we drove back to her house, ther I said hello to my Cousin Frank and Linda. Sally was at work doing a grand opening at Cold Stone Creamery and Pam was working and wouldnt be back till around 7 pm. We had dinner and then Lynn and I drove to the Cold Stone to pick up Sally, it was Friends and Family night at the place and we all got free ice cream, and Pam was there too. We came back to the house and just hung out and did nothing, while Pam ran around like a chicken without a head making sure everything was set and all the people were ready for tomorrow's ealry departure. Pam and I are so much alike in the aspect of haveing things very organized and wanting things to go right and we both can't stand lateness, and iresponsibility. When night came I was missing my baby already and really wanted to see hear and hold her in my arms, or at the very least hear her voice. So by the time sleepiness came upon me, I was in a yucky mood and feel asleep thinking about my baby.

-Saturday-

We woke up really early and were on our way to PA by 7:30am. It was Frank, Sally, Pam, Pams chinese friend who's name is wayto hard to spell, Sally's friend Falicia and myself were in one car. I rode shotgun and read more of my Johad book and listened to Pam's iPod for most of the trip. What surprised me was that I didn't fall asleep. We arrived at the place and I needed to buy wet shoes becasue they wouldn't let me wear my adidas sandals. There we at least 200 hundred people going on the 5 hour ride so there were a ton of rafts on the Lehigh river when we got on. I was nervous to begin with because Ive never gone rafting before and I had no idea if the water was going to be rough or not. Then to make things worse, Pam kinda left out the fact that people were going to carry large high pressured water guns on the trip to have water fights with, so not even five minutes into the trip, I got pelted in the face with water, causing my contact to roll in the back of my eye. So for the rest of the trip I had to cover my eyes so that I wouldnt lose my contact and be unable to do anything for the rest of the trip, I felt like such a jackass and had zero fun, I just wanted to be home and be with my baby. Thats all I thought about the whole day was Christina, I kept wondering what she was doing and if she missed me as much as I did her. After the five hour ride down the river, we headed over to our camp site, with a Grand Canyon sized dark cloud following us, and well what do you know as soon as we started setting up the tents, it started to pour so hard that you couldn't see through the rain. So I said screw all of you,Im sleeping in the truck. After the dipsticks finsihed setting up their now soaked tents, we went to this shithole of a restauraunt. I was in such a blah mood, after we ordered the food, I had a few minutes to go outside by myself and have a chance to call my baby. I tunred on my phone and I had a voicemail. It made me so happpy to hear her voice, so I tired to call her back, but it kept going to the voicemail, which made me very disappointed. But she called back like 15 seconds later. She was hanging out with her friend Maria, so that made me somewhat happy that she was having fun, but I wanted to see her so badly, we hung up because the food came and I had to go, but then she called me back and said that she was going to a house party in long island with Maria, she sounded excited about it, and Christina hasn't been able to hang out with her friends lately because most of them aren't near her anymore, so I was happy for her that she got to hang out with one of her closest friends. Neverthe less I was a little worried becasue I didn't know who she was going out with and the fact that I wasn't anywhere near her God forbid something were to happen and i wouldnt be able to do anything, made me so nervous and scared. For the rest of the night I felt even worse than before just thinking about the worse possibly thing that could happen to her. I missed her so much and the fact that I couldn't see her even if I wanted to made me miserable. I called Christina about every few hours just to see where she was and what she was doing and if she was ok. I hope I wasn't a pain in the ass constantly calling but I couldn't help, I NEEDED to know how my baby was. I called her for the last time around 1 or 2 in the morning and she sounded so depressed, I knew she had been drinking by the way she sounded and that made me extremly nervous, not because she had been drinking but becasue she seemed to be in such a down mood. I don't understand why it is people drink, I don't see the benefit of joy in it, and Christina thinks that I think less of her or get angry with her when she does drink, but the fact is I don't view her any differently, I just don't see why it is she drinks, I guess its just me. I was nervous becasue it was a house party in LI and I didnt know if the driver had planned on drinking or anything like that. I know Christina is smart and careful and extremly responsible but there are somethings that none of can control and that added to me nervousness. I didn't really sleep at all until I knew she was home and safe. that night it rained so incredibly hard that it woke me up and I couldn't fall back asleep.

-Sunday-

Well morning rolled around,and I was so tired from the water rafting and lack of sleep, and didn;t look at all foward to playing paintball, my body hurt and my attention, mind and heart was in New York with my baby. Paintball sucked, it was all muddy and the peole we were with werent very fun. I spoke to my baby afterwards and told her Id be back home late, she stil sounded in a not too happy mood. We left around 6pm, stopped at a McDonalds where I told a kid who had a pasifier in mouth that he looked like a dick and was in absolute idiot for having it in his mouth. We got home at 10:30PM and i was exhausted. I took a MUCH NEEDED shower that made me feel somewhat refreshed. Went online for about an hour and half and spoke to my baby nad Richard, then went to bed.

-Monday-

Saw my baby for the first time in two and half days this morning and I was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy. Wroked stunk as usual, during luch, Christina and I went to barnes & Noble and she bought the game TWISTER for me. Now Im at her house to have dinner with her family. Im very comfortable and relaxed now and soooooo happy that Im finally with my baby.


BTW I saw 5 RMP's today.